…………………………………………………..Amar Jibon……………………………..
By KHOKA
Sediner kotha sposto ajo mone ache amar.sedin amar jibon bodle gechilo hotath 1 jhotkay.ami tokhon 1st yr e pori.sokale college gie bikele tution porie sondhay bari firechilam train e.jokhon station e pouchalam next train chilo ladies special. meyera suye bose bari firlo,amar kono odhikar chilo na se train e other,karon ami chele.klanto,abosonno dehe next train pelam 30 minute pore.asomvob vir.saradiner klantir por ato kosto sojjo hoy? barbar mone porchilo ager train e suye bose jaoa meyegulor kotha,ei train eo ladies compartment puro faka.but,amar kharap lagchilo na,kirokom ekta odvut valo lagchilo .klanto abosonno dehe ki ek apurbo such bodh hochchilo .
bari firlam rat 8.30tay. snan sere dress change korlam.Aditi,amar adorer bon, firlo tar ektu pore.class 11 e pore o.school er por cinema dekhte gechilo,tarpor restaurant e kheye deye firlo.’uffff,ki tired ami,dada ektu jol ene de to’, bairer ghorer sofay bose bollo bon.ami jol ene or haate dilam. Saradin college por tution sere ,ladies special train chere vir train e dom bondho abosthay bari fire ami bonke jol ene dilam,karon o film dekhe ar restaurant e kheye klanto.’khub tired re dada,juto khulteo iccha korche na,babao nei bari’,misti hese bollo bon. Schooler shirt, skirt ,moja ar sneaker pora aditike darun sundor lagchilo.amar je ki holo,bonke bollam,’ami khule debo ?’bon misti hese ghar nere ha bollo.ami or juto pora pa duto kole tule nilam.jutor tolar moyla lagchilo amar pant e, haate.ami boner juto khule dilam,prothome dan payer,tarpor ba payer,.tarpor moja khule dilam.or pa tipe dilam minute duek,tarpor o nijer ghore chole gelo.ami or juto duto shoe rack e rakhte gie thomke daralam.ki je hoyechilo amar ke jane,chumbon korlam juto dutor upor,tarpor sojotne rakhlam,jano debir murti pujo korar jonne rakhchi.
Kheye deye suye porlam eku pore.khub klanto lagchilo,klanto dehe kamon ekta agovir ghume ocheton hoye gelam.majhrate ek odvut swapne ghum venge gelo.odvut swapnoi bote.sob chelera ladies special train e ferar jonne meyeder kache onurodh korche.meyera sorto dilo oder payer kache suye jete hobe. ami ar koekta chele raji hoye uthe seater kache mejhete suye porlam.meyera amar gaye pa tule dilo.amar mukhe je meyeta pa rekhechilo tar paye sneaker pora.amar mukhe se pa ghoschilo,tar jutor tolar moyla amar sara mukhe lege jachchilo.ami tar much dekhte pachchilam na,karon tar juto pora ba pa ta amar chokher upor chilo. ami or pa tipe dichchilam.ektu pore meyeta or ba pa amar kopale rakhlo,amar chokher dike takie bollo jiv bar kor kutta,ami jutor tola muchbo.’ami takie dekhi meyeta ar keu na,amar bon aditi !!
Amar ghum venge gelo probol uttejonay.bon train e jatayat korena,tobu swapne dekhte to badha nei.boner juto duto amake govir akorshon korchilo.ami montromugdho putuler moto uthe gie boner sneaker duto tule nilam,jutor tolata ghoste laglam sara mukhe.tarpor ber korlam jivta.jokhon thamlam tokhon juto duto notuner cheyeo besi poriskar.
Nesha katlo pas theke ekta golar awaj sune…’kamon laglo amar juto chatte?’ takie dekhi bon,hasi mukhe darie,or haate dhora mobile,kokhon o ese video record korte suru koreche bujhtei parini. Tor bondhuder video ta dekhate hobe,hese bollo bon.ami hatu gere or payer kache bose porlam,hatjor kore bollam ‘please na’.bon moja pachchilo bodhoy,or payer dike angul dekhie bollo pa dhore khwama cha. Ami upur hoye suye or dupayer upor matha rakhlam.or paye choti pora chilo.ami or paye matha ghoste ghoste bollam ‘please,khwama kore dao amake.’bon matha nere bollo ‘hochche na,respect chai aro’. ami or paye chumbon kore bollam,’provu, khwama kore din amake’. Bon or choti pora dan pa amar mathay rekhe bollo,’thik ache,tobe,tui ja ja korchili,akhon theke amar samne korbi..mane amar juto pora obosthae tui amar juto pora pa chete porishkar kore dibi..bujhli?”ami or paye chumu kheye bollam,”ha provu.”.songe songe o amake chuler muthi dhore tule onno haat diye bhison jore amar gale ekta thappor marlo….amar khub laglo..vishon,tobe seta sudhu byatha chilo na,songe chilo odvut ekta valo laga.o amake hukum korlo sofar pase mejhete suye porte.tarpor o giye sofa e boslo.r ami sofar niche dhuke chit hoye sulam.tarpor o or veja bathroom sandal ta amar mukher opor ghorate laglo ar bollo je “chat kutta amar nongra sandal er moyla chete clean kor.”ami o korte chesta korlam kintu o 1st 2 minute sudhu amar mukher opor diye choti ghurie gelo.amake chatte dilo na ….sudhu amar mukhe chotir nongra jolta chitate laglo..tarpor amar nagaler modhhe choti ele ami prothome chotir tolay ekta garho chumbon korlam. Tarpor jiv bar kore or chotir tola chatte laglam. Amar ar oke bon mone hochchilona ,mone hochchilo kono debi swargo theke neme amake dekha diechen,ar ami take pujo korchi. ghor vanglo aditi amar mukhe or choti pora pa duto these dhorte.….amar nissas bondho haoar upokrom holo. ….kintu koster modhdheo je ato anondo lukie thakte pare aage jana chilo na.ektu oxygen er jonne amar bukta haporer moto otha nama korte laglo.kintu ami provur pa soranor kono chesta korlamna..uffff…..ki kostokor oviggota…. mone hochhilo bujhi more e jabo oxygen er ovabe,abar ek e sathe mone hochchilo kono provur payer tolay morar moto souvaggo ar ki hote pare?….but amar boner khub e koruna je amake proti 2 minute pore pore 5 second er jonno nissas nite dichchilo.erokom abosthay pray 40 minute chilam bodhoy..tarpor amake bollo ami jeno amar jiv bar kore di..o amar jive chotir tola muchbe….ami tai korlam.next o bollo ami jeno kneel down hoe bose or pa tipe di.ami provu vokto chakorer moto tai korlam..o tokhon ekta potrika porchilo.. hotath o amar gale khoob jore choti pora pa diye lathi marlo.ami dhop kore pore gelam.Aditi ete khub moja pelo ar o amake hukum korlo soja hoye thakte jate o besh santite lathi marte pare. O erokom aro 30 bar kore 2 gaale feet slap korlo. amar gal diye alpo rokto berochhilo.tate o thamlona,erpor lathi marlo amar much,nak,ar kopale,aro antoto 50 ta.”amar tokhon byathar cheyeo besi valo lagchilo.erpor o bollo ami jeno abar chit hoe matite sue pori. o amar gola ar mukher upor paa duto rakhlo or.ami or pa tipte laglam.jokhon o uthe sute chole gelo tokhon ar amar othar sokti nei.ami okhanei ghume ocheton hoye gelam.
Pordin sokale amar ghum vanglo 7.30 tay.mukh dhute gie besiner aynay much dekhlam,boner jutor tolar moyla ar rokte makhamakhi hoye royeche. abosonno vabta kete abar ekta odvut valo laga fire elo mone.mukh dhuye fresh hoye nilam.tarpor ranna ghore gie cha ar breakfast ready korlam boner jonne.

Amra barite 3 jon thaki,ami ,baba ar amader adorer bon aditi. amar boyish jokhon 7 tokhon amar maa office theke ferar pothe harie jay. keu bole ma accident e mara geche, keu bole notun kono boyfriend er sathe chole geche. Konta thik,janina,keu e janena. amar baba ar mayer jokhon bie hoy dujoneri tokhon boyesh 20.porer bochor ami jonmai,ar 2 bochor por amar bon aditi.ma chilo darun sundori,bohu cheler crush chilo mayer upor.babao prothome oi dole chilo,maa babake patta ditona. seshe abosso janina kano babake bie kore ma,bier por o valobasata one sided e chilo.ma tar bondhu bandhobi nie hullor korto,amonki chele bondhuder sathe long drive e jeto,baire rat katato. baba konodin badha dayni.uffff,one sided love je ki voyonkor !!
Baba sudhu mayer songe thakte perei khusi chilo. tao soilona vagge. songe chilo onner mukhe bou palanor golpo sonar lanchona. amra tokhon choto,sob bujhtam na. babakei sob hasimukhe sojjo korte hoto. baba ekai amader sojotne boro kore,bisesh kore bonke. asole,bonke dekhte hubohu mayer moto,ek e rokom sundori. Dampotto jiboner sukh baba hasi mukhe metato ranna kore,boner jama keche,ba boner ghora hoye sara ghore bonke pithe nie 4 hat paye doure.saradin office kore sondhe bela hasi mukhe boner payer kache bose pa tipe ditto baba,jokhon bon tv dekhto. or naki bikele khele paye byatha hoto,tai. or bichana kora jama kacha,juto poriskar ,sob baba kore ditto… nijer gulo korar pasapasi amio kortam majhe majhe.
Aj theke 5 bochor aage dadur bari (babar baba) dadu dida babake abar bie korar jonne khub jor korechilo. baba chape pore gechilo meye dekhte.akhono mone ache,dadu didar samne babar mukhe lathi merechilo bon sei aporadhe.ar baba,tar nijer meyer paa dhore khwama cheychilo.tokhon babar boyesh matro 34.tokhon thekei baba nijeke aro boner sebay bilie diechilo. meyeke sukhe rakhai babar jiboner ekmatro uddesso hoye gechilo.asole,bon joto boro hochchilo, toto tar modhdhe make khuje pachchilo baba.ar meyer seba korar modhdhe diei hoyto tar apurno swapno kichuta mitto,tar dream girl er ….antoto…ektu pashe thakar.

Cha ar breakfast nie boner ghore dhuklam.o tokhono ghumachche.ami or paa er kache hatu gere boslam,or paaye haat die daklam,’provu’….o chokh mello,uthe boslo khater upor pa jhulie.ami or paye choti porie dilam.ektu pore fresh hoye fire ese o chaa khete laglo.ami or payer kache bose or pa tipte laglam. bon amar mukher dike takie bollo ‘sorry re dada,kal toke ovabe marar jonne.’ ami or paye matha rekhe bollam,’sorry kano bolcho provu,ami ar baba achi e tomar seba korar jonne. amader nie ja khusi korte paro tumi.’ Bon amar kan dhore bollo ‘oi dada,kal theke tor ki hoyeche bolto?tui to babaro opor die jachchis’. Ami sob bollam oke,kivabe kal 2nd yr er ekta chele 1st yr er lipike propose koray o sobar samne or mukhe thutu chitie thappor mereche, ar college kotripokkher samne junior meyeke disturb korar jonne oke lipir paa dhore khwama chaite hoyeche seta theke suru kore ladies ar vir train er oviggota, sob……bollam eguloke support korei.. bon hese bollo ‘janis dada,ingrej amole sadader jonne train reserve rakha hoto,karon ora nijeder superior vabto. seta vul chilo. But aj swadhin deshe sobai mene nieche meyera superior,tai amader aramer jonne ei byabostha.sudhu train kano ,bus eo ek e byabostha,half seat amader jonne.thik to eta?’ ami aditir paye chumu kheye bollam ‘ha provu,meyera vogoban , taito durga pujar somoy kumari meyeder debi durga hisebe pujo kora hoy’.
Sedin ami college gelam na,bon o school gelona.dupure khaoar por bon tv dekhchilo ar ami or payer tolay suye or pa tipe dichchilam.or choti pora pa duto amar mukhe rakha chilo.baba aj bikele office er kaj sere delhi theke firbe. bon bollo,’dada,baba fire jokhon dekhbe tui amar payer tolay suye pa tipchis,ki bolbe?’ami bollam ‘khusi e hobe baba”.’ ar babar mukheo Jodi pa rakhte chai ami?’, bon bollo. ami or chotir tolay chumbon kore bollam babar jibon dhonno hoye jabe,jamon amar hoyeche”…
ADITI hese bollo “THIK BOLECHIS, CHELEDER JAYGAI HOLO MEYDER PAYER TOLAY…

Amar jibon 2

Airport theke berie ekta taxi nilam. Ghorite tokhon bikel 4 tey. Office er kaj sere aj e delhi theke bari firchi. Ebar 5 din thakte holo delhi te. Amon kichu besidin noy, tobu amar mone hochchilo jano kotodin por bari firchi. Kotodin jano nijer bari ar chele meyeke chere dure achi. Bishesh kore meyer kotha sobcheye besi mone porchilo, amar adorer meye aditi. Amar jibone oi to sob. Oke khusi dekhle ami khusi hoi, or dukkhe jontrona hoy. Oke na dekhe ekta din katano amar kache norok jontrona vog. Sekhane 5 din ami baire pore achi,or theke dure. Mon barbar byakul hoye uthchilo ei vebe je kokhon bari pouche meyer seba kore oke khusi korte parbo.
Barir samne neme bag kadhe jhulie door bell bajalam. Amar chele anindya khule dilo dorja. Aditir akhon dekha pabona jani, or pora ache , firbe raat 8 tay. Or jonne onek gift enechi delhi theke, onek khabar enechi packet kora. Tobu fresh hoye ranna ghore dhuke meyer jonne special kichu ranna korte laglam. Sorir khub klanto lagchilo,tobu saririk klanti upekkha korei meyer jonne ranna korlam. Thik 8.30 tay door bell bajlo. Jar jonne adhir agrohe opekkha kore achi, sei aditi,amar meye. O ghore ese sofay boslo-“ hi bapi,kamon acho?” ami or payer kache bose porlam, or sneaker pora b(n)a jutor upor chumbon kore bollam “valo,tumi kamon acho?”
Aditi misti hese bollo “darun valo bapi, dada amar darun seba korche kal theke.” Anindya or bonke valobase,or jotno kore thik e, tobe seba bolte ja bojhay tamon khub ekta korto na. sune valo laglo. Aditir juto pora paa duto kole tule nilam ami, jutor upor chumbon korlam. Tarpor or juto moja khule or paa tipe dite laglam. Meyer pa tipte darun valo lage amar,or seba korchi ei chinta darun anondo day amake. Pray 20 minute or paa tipe dilam. tarpor o uthe dotolay chole gelo. Ora dui vai bon e dotolay thake. Niche ranna ghor,khawar ghor,bosar ghor ar amar soar ghor. Aditi opore chole gele ami ektu suye nilam.
Raat 10 tay uthe dinner ready korlam prothome. Amader barite kokhono amra eksathe khaina. Jokhon amar wife sreetoma amar sathe thakto tokhon thekei ei byabostha. Aage o kheto, tarpor ami. Erpor jokhon anindya ar aditi ektu boro holo tokhon aage ora maa arm eye kheto, tarpor ami ar chele. Sreetoma chole jaoar por o meyeder aage khawar niomta chalu ache amader barite. Aditi aage khay . chele oke poribeshon kore ar ami aditir paa tipe di. Aditi aste aste khay, tv dekhte dekhte. Or khawa hoye gele tarpor or bichana kore di. O suye pore, tarpor amra dujone khai.
Dinner ready kore ami upore gelam , chele meyeke daakte. Aditir ghore dhuklam oke dakte,kintu dhuke ja dekhlam tate obak hoye gelam vishon. Aditi or norom godi mora chair tay bose ekta golper boi porche, ar or dada anindya or payer tolay suye or paa tipe dichche. Aditir porone ekta ghore porar t-shirt ar skirt, paye choti. Ar aditi or choti pora pa duto rekheche nijer dadar mukhe !!!
Aditi or dadar mukhe choti pora paa duto rekhe amon vabe boi pore jachchilo jano eta vishon normal ekta byapar. O dadar mukher upor chotir tola duto aste aste ghoschilo. Ar anindya amon vabe or paa tipchilo jano o nijer provur seba korche. “provu”???? vabtei kirokom ekta anondo jege uthlo buker modhdhe. Aditi amader provvui to. Oi amader provu, oi amader vogoban. Amra dujonei beche achi ekmatro oke khusi rakhar jonnei.
Ami chup kore darie dekhte laglam oder dujonke. Ki sundor lagche aditike akhon. Ato sundor meyer paa to cheleder mukher upor e rakha uchit. Nijer upor rag holo ektu amar. Kano atodin or paa tepa somoy nijer mukhta pete din i oke paa rakhar jonne?? Atodin ami vabtam meyeke jotota seba kora somvob ami tar cheye besi chara kom korina. Nijeke valo baba vebe khub gorbo hoto amar. Othocho aj bujhte parchi meyeke motei valovabe seba kortam na ami.
Ami chup kore dekhe chollam oder dujonke. Aditir ba paata anindyar mukher upor rakha, ar dan paa ta kopal ar chokher upor. Chokh bondho kore suye nijer boner choti pora paa tipe jachche anindya. Aditi amake dekhte peye haslo. “Dakho baba, dada ki sundor seba kore amar. Tumi to seba kortei sekhoni.” Amar moner kothatai sunlam amar meye, amar provu aditir mukh theke. Ami haatu gere or payer kache bose porlam. Dukkhe chokh die jol berie aschilo amar. Haatjor kore bollam, “amar vul hoye geche provu, ar kokhono hobena amon.” Aditi or dadar mukher upor aste ekta lathi marlo, “ei dada,oth tui. Ektu dekhi, baba kamon seba kore amar.” Anindya aditir duto chotir tolay chumu khelo ekbar kore, “jotha agga provu” bole uthe gelo. “tui suye por raju”, meye amr dike takie bollo. Meyer mukhe “tui” sombodhon ar nijer daak naam sune chomke uthlam prothome. Tarpor mone holo o to meye,ami or baba to ki hoyeche? Or amake tui bole dakai swavabik. Ami suye porlam or payer kache. Aditi uthe daralo chair chere, tarpor amar mukhe or choti pora dan paa ta rekhe daralo. Aste aste ghoste laglo amar mukhe or chotir tola. Amar darun valo lagchilo. Etai amar sothik sthan, meyeder payer tolay. Etai sob cheler sothik sthan. Sob chele Jodi ei kothata bujhto,nijer sukher kotha na vebe sudhu meyeder seba kore jeto, tahole prithibir aj ato kharap obostha hoto na.
Amar ghor katlo mukher upor ek sojore aghate. Aditi or choti pora pa diye lathi mereche amar mukhe. Ami or mukher dike takate o misti haslo, tarpor paa tule abar lathi marlo amar mukhe,ebar aro jore. O lathi mere chollo amar mukhe, kokhono thote, kokhono gale, kopale ba naaker upor achre porte laglo or dan pa. tarpor bollo “amar khide peyeche, chol, khete jai”. Khabar ghore o bosle anindya oke khabar serve korte laglo ar ami or paa tipte laglam.obosso a jar or payer kache bose noy,or payer tolay suye. Aditi choti khule or khalu paa duto amar mukher upor rekhechilo,ar ami or paa duto voktivore tipe dichchilam.ato anondo ami jibone aage kokhono paini. Or payer angul theke tepa suru korchilam. Amar haater taluta thakchilo or payer tolay,ar haater angul gulo or payer upore. Aste aste payer angul theke paa tipte tipte hill obdi pouchachchilam, tarpor tarpor gorali hoye or cuff obdi tipchilam. Tarpor abar neme ese payer angul theke tepa suru korchilam. Aditi tv dekhte dekhte onekkhon dhore khelo. Ei puro somoyta or paa tipe dilam ami. Or khawa sesh hole khete boslam amra dujone. Onno diner moto table e bose noy. Aditir payer kache thalay khabar nie boslam amra. Aditi or choti pora ba paa ta amar thalar upore rakhlo,ar dan paa ta or dadar thalay. Chotir tola die maarie dilo amader khabar. Amra dujone amader provur payer tolay marano khabar khete laglam porom anonde.